It's near. Ambivalent everyday. Excited like a kid but scared like an adult. It's like id and superego pulling me apart once again. I'm at cloud nine but then reality bits me another second.
My original plan A is finally here (all those years). Got the date on my birth month. I should be happy right? I am. :) But setbacks are in. Those unnecessary requirements that I've already did and need to be doing again are back! Pfft.
When I was younger, the competitive yuppie sets in--aggressive. But now, the first reaction is I don't give a f*ck but I need to do this--passive. I'm getting tired of the waiting game + re-doing it all again.
For this last time, I'm pushing my self - aja! lol.
I am making my own gantt chart and setting the timeline close to that date. Help me God.
This may be the beginning of something great but on the other side -- this may be the easiest part and future entails the harder one. I'm being ready!
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Hard to do fit in those stuff when you normally adulting. It's like ba't bako may 8-5 job when I can do better, chos. ~~
