A Beautiful Mind

 A Beautiful Mind

Old and odd but definitely will wake up your senses to explore your world in a different perspective.  Everyone has a chance in this world, even crazy people. ^_~

Gives me a different feeling, a pseudo self-attainment in my mind.  I feel euphoric with this, good example of couple who stands through thick and thin.

I'll never get tired of watching you. 

Blue Valentine (2010)

I haven't written for a while.  Help me bring back my thoughts. :)

This is a little bit late for valentines, but hey its still February so this still counts. haha!

The story much revolved to a love story that only one person has the love and the other is just for comfort.  I am moved with the sincerity and control of emotions of the guy to the girl, that event hough  emotional pain hits him hard he still manage to have this respect and love for her.  This story portrays the realization that you will do anything for love, even crossing the border of your ego.   Dean falls love at first sight with this girl, Cindy, who has a boyfriend, Jerry.  Cindy as had been implied, doesn't love back Dean as much as he had.  Heartbroken and lost Cindy saw the man and sincerity in Dean that swept her off her feet for a while.  Take responsibilities with her, even claimed the child she was having although not really his.  Geez, he's so in love with her.  Few years after they have been married, Dean had been so sweet and tried everything to make the relationship work.  Cindy, on the other hand, showed the emptiness in her eyes everytime she looks at Dean.  Although she likes Dean, having a lot of potentials and excels in stuff that he does, she still sees the imperfections the guy has.  The ending is a bit depressing, but I am moved that it is the right thing that should happen for the both of them.

The story of the movie is unfortunately true in relationships everywhere.  Its starts with who will it be for you: the one you love or the one who loves you.  A story of how reality bites every person in situations where one loves the other more and no contentment.  You cannot definitely be happy when you're with a person you don't specifically love -- loving for convenience, for other reason, for other bullshits.  This shows how life could just be unfair.  You love a person but that person doesn't love you back.  Instead he/she is in love with someone else.  And a someone else loves you back.  So I guess it is luck for those person who believe in soul-mates and they've found them.

Good movie. There should just be a bit more distinction on the physical appearance of Dean and Cindy on their flashbacks scenes and present ones cause it brings one into thinking which is which.









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OT: I've got a new professor, she treats us like matured people when it comes to discussions but she treats us like kids with our assignments.  Who in college would make comments like happy faces, 'me like =)', in your drawings.  Haha! put on some stamp stars and we're back in pre-school! But hell yeah its cool. haha!  Weird, she uses idioms like 'kiss ass' and 'hell yeah' as side comments to some discussions.  Nonetheless, I like her as a prof, out of the ordinary. 

Letters to Jerri

Dear Jerri,

Damn I miss you furry-inanimate-let-out friend!  Pouring out thoughts for my future. 

I wish to find that someone who will never get tired of me.  That someone who holds my hand in public and smile.  The one who makes the cutest pout when she's jealous.  Someone who will look at me like I'm the prettiest girl for her.  Someone who will ask me whats wrong when I'm quiet.  Someone who will tell lousy jokes, for me to have that silly laugh.  Someone who is willing to sit down and have nice long conversation of anything under the sun.  Someone whose presence makes hard things just like a walk in the park.  

That someone who will hold my hand and tell me "It will be alright, I'm right here and will never leave."  Someone whose young at heart to laugh at my immaturity and mature enough when needs arise.  The one who will make confrontation and not collision with our problems.  Maybe hard to grasp, when reality bits hard.  But that why there is magic in every little thing we believe.  

 "Magic is always impossible.  It begins with the impossible and ends with the impossible and is impossible in between.  That is why it's magic."

 I wish I may, I wish I might, Have this wish I wish tonight. 

P.S.: Jerri I uber miss you.  Where can I find a new you?  My beanie baby.

I like not only to be loved, but to be told that I am loved. ~~ :)

BV!

I've known something through ways I couldn't tell.  Its not a good way.  So I just kept quiet.  Its about how you didn't love me the way you should, the way you talked about it.  Could it be you've just said it to lighten the burden with the situation you're into at that time. At least you should have stood up for me well.  You could have made me proud of you then.  But that didn't happened.  I then just realized it.  I really doubted you more.  

You asked me what's wrong.  If I tell you, would you help me with it.  When it is you that's wrong. Most of the things about you now is doubtful.  I cannot even tell if its true or just a facade.  Is it just a phase that you 'love' me now.  

Then I told you what's inside.  Nothing happens.  Is it the sign that history is repeating itself for the nth time? That you again want it to come from me, then you could proceed to that grimy deed again.  Pick up some bimbos and join the ride.  Leave me like a helpless damsel, retrieving my pieces you've smashed behind.  Well let me tell you now,  I've been better since then.  You've changed me, you know.  This would be just like a walk in the park, easily done.

I 'm happy being with you but its lacking something ~~ trust.  I am having the feeling again.  The least emotion I ever wanted to feel again.  It is with your new found friend.  I dunno, but it gives me a different aura between the two of you now.  Just make sure you are true this time and make my hunches wrong.  Because if not, you'll regret it long enough.

You hurt me once... shame on you. You hurt me twice... shame on me

for the third time? for the nth time? shameless me?
I'm having a hard time.  I hate it :( Give assurance for that truthful feeling. ...