Birthday ko na bukas... pero parang wala lang.
Nakakadepress naman tsk.

Excited! We're going to make it!

I may have been busy these past few weeks.  Grumpy and hotheaded when i don't get things my way.  I may have been less sensitive with your needs.  I let you sleep first. I missed making you laugh when you had a bad day from work.  I took for granted the times you to have 'moments' with me. 

I may have forgotten our first (busy-ness lang baby). But I'm excited for our next. :) It'll be on the day after tom. Yey!
Advance happy 2nd baby! Iloveu bigtime!
Tandaan mo yan hehe.

P.S.: Take care of Jerri, baby. I'll gonna miss him :(

Hopefully not one of my last pics with Jerri.

I'm sad. :'( i feel like crying. Not just with this hair, but the whole collective thingy of what i'm presently in.  Its one of the dumbest idea but hell, unhappy thoughts came hand in hand together today. pfft. I can't think good things to cheer me up.  I tried but it didn't meant anything. Dumb. Me. I wanna go out. Just don't wanna do it alone. :/ i tried asking my friend to go out somewhere, but he's with gf today, so that means it'll be the 3 of us if then. pfft. not that i don't like the girl, but i can't just say can me and dexie be alone for a while.  naahh.
I just then really realized, its totally different him having a girlfriend.  I miss the old times.  Then I miss having someone I can call and just do talk and dates somewhere. 

Impulsivity do forms regrets

Early start for a morning, I feel regrets from yesterday.  Its not really of a big deal but this totally threw my day out the trash.

Bum life can make you plan out of the ordinary stuff.  Well, maybe it may be of your usual stuff but impulsively thought of.  I planned to trim my bangs a bit, still deciding on what kind wanting a bit different look.  Opting for a full bangs for it'll be better with the shape of my face.  But then, still thinking twice with it, I absentmindedly decided to shorten the body of my hair first.  My present 'do formed a V with the longest strands trailed down near my bottom.  I planned on having the same style but up my bra line.  I trim it there but then thought seems like none of a difference.  Cut a bit again.  I did seem to enjoy the trimming 'til I reached above my nip line.  I find it okay at that time.  As I continued to cut the final layer and be able to see the whole thing, emotions came rushing in.  I don't want this! I looked at the stash of hair, men I cut it long! :( I've got worries.  I miss my long hair.  I feel like I regretted it, I should not have done it. With this big thing in mind, I totally forgot to cut my bangs.  Clouds of  thought formed a bout on my relentless mind.  It started to sink in. 


Well I can't do anything 'bout it now.  Just have to get accustomed with this. pfft.  Now I'm planning to have it rebonded but I can't. arggghh Don't have the resources to pay for it.  Got braces to pay for and some future expenses. bad vibes coming in!

with my long hair

with the new haircut

Still early and I'm already feeling shitty. amft!

It is how much you've affected me.

I know you love me,

You are very open with that.

And hope you see that I do appreciate the feeling,

I do appreciate you.

I do appreciate the things you do,

the stuffs you write,

the compliments you give,

the time you spend,

the ideas you share,

the jokes to make me laugh,

the comments that make me smile,

the past you share,

the questions you ask,

the answers you give.

Oh, don’t do everything for me, you’ll gonna spoil me then haha!

Do everything that’ll make Us happy, not just me.

With the things we’ve talked about, I want you to do those.

If we’ll be put in a test, that specific test

 You’ll know then, what to do.

I just sounded like I’ve molded a flowchart :)

I would love that, not making me stop ‘til I see the love we have.

Give me that reason that’ll make me realize reality. 

Seeing you in pain, I’m sure will be my waterloo.

I will hate those, I may hate myself too.

This may be a turning point for me, something that’ll grab me back.    

Reading your stuff made me stare on it for a while,

My heart actually did a cart wheel a couple of times with it.

You’re making me feel the security we’ved talked about.

Honestly, soon I would want to feel that you are my happily ever after,

and not just my once upon a time.

Too early to say, but then who knows.  :)

That 2 letter makes me smile, bigtime!

You make me smile

You always do that, you know.

I have nights that smile is the last thing left on me

before I went on to dreamland.

I’ve got times I laughed so hard,

it made my cheeks hurt bigtime.

Your words touched me,

Smiling is an understatement to describe me.

I’m happy we’re doing this,

This writing stuff thingy

I’m starting to know your feelings.

And thank you, you appreciate my effort

 to lessen your feeling of being jealous, if not eliminating.

I take a look at myself – if I’m feeling it,

 what would I want to hear to ease my sensitivity

Then I do tell those to you.

I like you, I feel light when you are around.

I am opening again my once closed option – LDR.

P.S.:

I never have thought you would be much open with me with this topic.

And you even called me ‘bata’ prior. lol.

TEACH ME MASTER, :)

Ang sarap lang sa mata, makita yung sinulat mo.

Naisip ko lang naman, di pa din naman natin sigurado kaya ko binalik yung mga tanong.

Sa sandaling pagkakakilala, alam ko labas palang ang nakilala sakin.

Sa araw araw – nag-uusap, nagbibiruan, nagkukulitan, nag-aasaran, nagkukwentuhan.

Masaya ako, kasi ang dali lang.  Parang ang kampante ko na okey lang lahat sayo.

Di ko na iisipin na baka di mo magustuhan o baka ang ‘korni’ ng dating.

Ang dami kong nalaman, may mga natutunan.

Baka nga masabi ko na ang “teach me, master.” :

Mga bagay na baka di ako kampanteng pag usapan kapag iba ang kausap.

Nagiging normal na pag uusap at biruan kapag ikaw ang kausap.

Masaya ako, na kahit hindi pa talaga ito ang gusto mo, kulang pa ang hinihintay mo.

Andyan ka lang, nag aantay, sabihin ko sayo – yung alam mo na. :

Dati ko ng napagtanto, pero ang hirap pa din talagang gawin.  Ang hirap magtagalog!

OO IKAW

If I am to cry again, I am crying for joy. :D. Thank u super.

Ibabalik ko ang tanong

Mamahalin mo din kaya ako?

Magugustuhan mo din kaya ako? Kapag nagkita na tayo.

Sana. :)

 

Masaya din ako nakilala kita

Sa lahat ng magandang sinabi mo, lahat yun gusto ko.

Kahit paulit ulit kong binabasa, napapangiti lang ako lalo

Alam ko na kung ano tayo kapag masaya,y

Yung kapag hindi nalang.

Madali akong malungkot, madali lang din sumaya.

Salamat sa sinabi mong sasamahan mo ako at yayakapin kapag nangyari ang una.

Ice cream nga lang okay na ako.

Sa madaming mangyayari, maganda o hindi.

Basta matinong usap lang, nadadaan lahat sa ganun. J

Saka sabi mo nga eto yung relasyon na “give and take”.

Kapag nagseselos kana, kapag naiinis ka pala.

Kapag ayaw mo ng ginagawa ko, ng asal ko.

Sabihin mo lang, para alam ko. 

At mababago ko, magiging okay tayo.

Ganun din ako.­

Hope this helps, hirap magtagalog ah hehe.

Catch me, I'm ...

me as i got excited on something!.
i'll another that'll show how i got disappointed after that intense excitement.

Let me fall head over heels.

You're becoming a routine.  You have become my routine.  You keep me welcome with your presence.  You make me smile with simple things.  Make me laugh with our funny stories.  You make me comfortable to talk about uncomfortable stuff.  I'm starting to think about you more often than I should.  I'm starting to wait for you go online when I'm online. 

I think about you every night I go to sleep.  I imagine you're here with me. With one arms around me and your legs touching me.  Then you kiss me on my neck and we fall asleep like that.  It helps me sleep. 

I'm starting to like you.    

There are just thoughts that keeps me with my previous decision.  I'm still in limbo if to pursue or not, but obviously I'm siding with the former.  

 

And at this time, you're asleep in front of me, though different time different place.  Hope this will make you smile when you get this. 

‎"You were born because you are going to be important to someone." ♥